Wednesday, October 28, 2009


Roller-coaster? Tight-rope? Space Mountain? Today I've decided I'm on a merry-go-round. Why you ask? Because on a merry-go-round, you not only spin in futile circles, but you also go up and down on your little horse! That's pretty much me in a nutshell right now. I know, I know....I have been very aware of my craziness lately. It's because I'm really without a plan, spinning in a circle. As my family knows, I'm pretty much only happy when I have a plan. Until I have a plan, I am in full research mode making the effing plan! So here is a list of the horses that are swirling around in my head:

  • The shiny pink horse (aka donor egg cycle with known donor) - My donor, FairyEggs, lives very close to a medical center where a friend of my current RE works. Yesterday I made the appointment for a consultation with Dr.M in a couple of weeks and also asked to speak to the financial coordinator. She wasn't in, but she called me with all of the financial goodies! Oh yay! Come to find out, a known donor cycle there still incurs a $7800 administrative fee at that clinic! Which would make a grand total of $19,304 + meds + some additional testing. Hmm. That doesn't really fit into my responsible budgeting. 
  • The comfy horse - Bite the bullet and drag FairyEggs across the country to my current RE back in Louisiana. This would mean lots of time in a hotel. Also FairyEggs would have to be away from her FairyKiddos for quite awhile which is very hard for her. So right now, I'm waiting for their financial coordinator to call me to let me know how much a donor egg cycle would run there. Since the laws in Louisiana are different, I'm hoping for a better price and the comfort of working with people I know. 
  • The shady green horse - Called Shady Grove Fertility to get the pricing for their shared risk, shared donor and also the shared risk donor programs. Wow, they really bring the price down by sharing donors cycles! What is more impressive is that they put their money where their mouth is and offer 100% refunds for their shared risk program. They also work well with out-of-town patients and have what looks like a well-oiled plan to reduce travel times. Might be worth pursuing.
  • The frozen horse - Embryo Adoption/Donation. Yes, you have heard me rant about this in my previous post, but it is still an option as I might find someone willing to privately donate their embies if they are done growing their family. 
  • The red horse with stars - Adoption. A fellow blogger pointed me a direction of a very reasonable domestic infant adoption program. They contacted me within an hour of my request and were very straightforward. For this though, we would really need to wait until we moved. :( Ugh.
These are all the fun things spinning around in my head. Of course my hormonal ups and downs are keeping life fun too. Good thing my husband loves me! :) 



  1. I always had a hard time picking which horse I wanted to ride. But, it was always a fun ride. I wish you luck and peace with your decision. I am here for you if you need to vent!!

  2. Hold on and enjoy the ride as they say. Ugh! I hope you can find some peace of mind soon.

  3. So many horses! I think that, the more you and DH talk this through, it will be clear to you which one to put money on (so to speak). Good luck finding the horse that feels right to you.

  4. I found your comment on my buddy's website- Womb For One More... I was matched on Miracles Waiting in less than a week and am almost 26 weeks pregnant with twins!!!! It really does work!!! Our cycle was closer to $3000. not close to $5000. I am against the "adoption agencies" that are taking advantage of families!!! Please feel free to visit my blog-


  5. Hang on tight! Sounds like you've got quite the stable of potential horses. I'm sure with time you'll figure out what's right for you :)

  6. Ahhh...indecisiveness! It's my middle name. My hubby often rolls his eyes to the heavens and decides for us on things. Research phase is exhausting. I'm right there with ya hun. I'm trying relax some and not rush into a decision. (I can't stop the research tho!)

  7. Choices...better to have too many than to have too few, or none.

    Glad to hear you are working each one to find out the best fit. Hang in there, I know it is exhausting!