Tuesday, October 20, 2009

The fat lady sang.

Well the fat lady sang me a big BFN this afternoon.

I wasn't surprised because FirstResponse told me it was a negative this morning when I woke up.

I haven't even really cried except a few tears here and there. I'm just absolutely effing pissed.

The anger and tears are roiling up inside me that this is the hand we have been dealt.

20 comments:

  1. ugh, so so sorry. not fair at all. hoping you get some answers at your next appointment.

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  2. Fuck. I am so very sorry, Jen. None of this is fair.

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  3. Oh if only I could wave a magic wand. This blows.

    I am so sorry.

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  4. It's just senseless & unfair.. so sorry. Do what you have to do to let it out & then try to hold on. You are not alone!

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  5. I am SO SORRY! I am thinking about you today.

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  6. Damn! I was really hoping this was your time. I'm so sorry Jen.

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  7. Oh, Jen, I'm so incredibly sorry and sad for you. Hugs.

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  8. I'm so sorry. This whole thing is so unfair, isn't it. I wish words could take away the pain you're feeling. I'm thinking of you.

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  9. My heart aches for you. I know how you feel and how hard it is to deal with such massive disappointment. You had such a rough start this cycle and then you wound up with 2 embryo to only have that hope snatched from you. I really am sorry and I was really hoping to see that BFP for you.

    Do you have next step or plan? That is the one thing that keeps me going is looking forward.

    I also want to thank you for all the sweet encouraging words and comments you have been posting on my blog. They mean more than I can express.

    Hugs!

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  10. I am beyond sorry to hear about this. I was hoping and praying that you would get your miracle this time. As someone that is also dealing with failed IVF #2 I can feel your pain. It sucks, it hurts and if you are like me you never thought you would be facing IVF #3 becuase you were sure it would work the first couple of times. Please allow yourself to be pissed, sad and tired of all of this. It is natural and you need to work through it. You and your hubby are in my thoughts. I am praying and thinking of you. I am so so sorry.

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  11. I am so sorry, I was really hoping it would work this time!!! Sending lots of BIG HUGS!

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  12. I'm so sorry. Life is so unfair :(

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  13. I have been away and only just saw your news. I'm so sorry. You sound like you are coping with the news so well, I admire your strength in this shitty time. You are a mega strong woman, and don't you forget it.

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  14. Way behind on checking my fellow bloggers and their posts. SO VERY SORRY to read this. I will face the ol' pee stick in a few weeks and am terrified of the result. *hugs*
    Thanks for the encouraging words at my blog.

    *ICLW*

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