Sunday, August 23, 2009

It comes in threes, right?

I would like to say this has been kind of a shitty week combined with one great element and one good thing. Please tell me the crap is over because I feel like I'm going to have a nervous breakdown.

The good:

*Hello, my husband came home safely from a war zone! You would think everything else would peaches right?

*IVF #2 - I have the money, I have the time, I have no cysts, and I have an awesome doctor who is bringing out the big guns this time.

The bad:

*IVF #1 - BFN found out on Monday.

*My wedding ring setting broke yesterday when I was helping out my hubby in the garage. I didn't lose any stones (TYG!), but I can't wear it until I get it reset. I hate not wearing my ring. Of course, I am going to turn this into good news when I get to design a new setting. Until then, boo!

*The worst - those of you who know me know I have two dogs whom I pretty much consider my kids. They have slept with me through a year of deployment, licked my tears when I cried, made me exercise every day, and laugh hysterically so many times. I have to find one of them a new home.

Pepper, the younger one, is the one who is going to go. She's is my sweet baby who loves to curl up next to me. She must go though because occasionally WW3 breaks out between the two of them. Yeah, don't buy two female dogs.

I've literally cried more tears today and last night than I have in a year of deployment. She's not just a dog, she's my family. To have her go is breaking my heart into pieces.

What's worse is it's not over, now I have to actually find her a good home. I don't think anyone could love her as much as I do. I can't have kids and now I can't even have my dog.

I feel like this is the thing that literally might break me.


  1. Oh no!!!! I'm so sorry about your pup! That is absolutely the worst...I hope you find someone you know who will keep in contact with you...I feel like that would make it slightly easier...but it still is a hard decision to make!

    Thinking about you!

  2. Hopefully you will have a baby to hug soon to make things better. Hope you have a better day tomorrow.

  3. I had the same problem as you with three dogs and we ended up taking them all to a positive reinforcement behavioral class (separately) and things worked out. I don't know if that is an option for you but it worked for us. Good luck!