Infertility throws another huge twist into the mix.
How do I plan for a maybe family? How do I plan for not having a family? Should I just plan life and let the rest happen? I think that might be a thought for the fertile world, but not-so-much for IFers.
The reason this comes up is because I found a new doctoral program that exactly
fits my ultimate career desires. I've looked at a ton of programs and never found one that I literally fell in love with. There are no Army bases near the school, but V said if I can get accepted, he'll make something work for us.
So then I dare to think, what if round 2 (ding) works? Could I, would I...want to do still do this program?
I haven't felt any huge career desires in awhile. There are things I want, but I've been very content in teaching my kids and continuing to improve my skills in the classroom. Moreover, I've been extremely happy just being able to spend time with my husband and enjoy life. So to have this awakening of desire is just flat out strange to me. It's the same kind of desire I feel to have a munchkin of my own.
It's funny, but I feel almost guilty for thinking of something other than wanting to have my munchkin.
What am I thinking!?
**Two seconds after I wrote this post, I checked my email and my mom said:
"That means Dad and I would need to move that direction to take care of the baby/babies. Very exciting!"