The Reactions

As my family and friends have been there for every step of my IF process, those who know what we have been through also got to know about our news yesterday. Most of me still feels like this is a piece of hope floating in the wind and not very real. However the reactions yesterday were so very lovely that I have to share them with you.

Immediately after my post I sent a mass text to my family and close friends telling them to "Check my blog please." My husband said this was a little cruel as I should have called my parents. However, I thought this was kind of fun so everybody knew at the same time. I then called my mom who was laughing and crying at the same time. The softness in her voice went straight to my heart and made me think that this might be happening. Apparently my sister and her were dancing around the kitchen in California. FairyEggs was crying so much when I called her, she was just gushing with relief and happiness.

Things here at my house are still pretty subdued. We'll see what happens tomorrow.

xoxo

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Direct from FairyEggs:

Woo Hoo!  There are really no words to express how happy, ecstatic and completely over the moon I am!  My mom got a text and said, “Look at your cell phone; I think you got a text from J.”  I immediately ran to my phone and then ran to my computer.  I made my husband stop doing our taxes so I could read the blog and immediately started sobbing.  Completely uncontrolled crying. I didn’t know whether to call or text J when the phone rang.  I was so glad J called me and we chatted about the great news!  It is very hard to be “cautiously optimistic” on a day like today.  I am choosing pure joy!  I will be cautiously optimistic tomorrow…

On a side note, I am so relieved this is over for me.  I have felt so much pressure (from myself ONLY) to help J, that now I can just breath and enjoy.  I have done everything I can for her and hubby and I can sit back and watch J go through all of the joy and nausea it takes to grow a baby.  She has listened to me complain through three pregnancies and listened to me when I had a miscarriage.  She listened to me cry and complain when I had an unexpected pregnancy.  Little did I know that three short years later she would be dreaming for an unexpected pregnancy.  I still have guilt about my feelings about my beautiful daughter that I thought I didn’t want.  She is one of the best things that has ever happened to me.  J has been with me through one of the toughest times of my life and supported my decisions and listened to me for hours.  The bottom line is she deserves pure joy.  It is her turn. 

Love you Jenicini!