Thursday, September 1, 2011

Getting Back Into It

I could apologize profusely for sucking at blogging over the last few months. Here are my reasons:

a) I've been busy running around with my visitors, going to school, teaching classes, starting my internship, blah, blah, blah.
b) My emotions about myself, my relationships, and adding to our family vacillate daily.
c) I've been editing myself.

So, let's address reason c.

Sharing my blog and my experience with people IRL has been an incredible support throughout our journey. However a few months ago I had people link up with my blog who I really had not invited personally. While this is not an issue in and by itself, I began to slowly edit some of the gritty or unsavory details out. Let's face it, it's not easy letting everybody see some of the aspects of myself that I'm not proud of. So instead of being brave, I started boxing myself into an image more and more within my writing...

How I should feel....
What I should say....

Blech. That's no way to live.

So now I'm trying to get myself geared up again to reclaim my blog. :) Baby steps Jen.

And before I toddle off to bed, let me share two of E's eleven month old pictures that we took this morning.

These were right at the beginning of the shoot and he was really subdued. Still pretty darn cute though.



  1. 11 months... such a big guy; and so handsome!

    Glad you're getting back into the swing of things!

  2. He is ALMOST a year old!

    This thing that happens when people IRL know your blog is the very reason I chose to not reveal that I blog to my real-life family and friends. It allows me to say things like I want to.

  3. He is NOT allowed to be that old!!! GAh! Welcome back :-) I have missed you!

  4. Glad you are back. And in charge for that matter :) I also don't reveal my IF blog to real life people...besides my mom (I like to keep her in the loop). Which reminds me my URL has changed... Hope to here more on you and E and how things are going.

  5. 11 months - amazing! Love the pics! I'm too afraid to share my blog with anyone IRL, for the exact same reasons...

  6. love, love, love! :) I hate the having to 'self edit'... so I didn't, and all holy hell broke loose with his family... :( I totally get where you are coming from! xoxo

  7. Gosh he is getting so big! Still adorable as always. I hope you can find what you need to reclaim your blog and utilize it as you want.