Blood

Last night I was walking to our bedroom to go to sleep when I felt wet. I peek down under my pants and see that blood starting to run down my legs. Bright red blood. I cleaned up and laid down with a towel under me. Tears were running down my face as I desperately willed the bleeding to stop. This can't happen. My problem is not suppose to be carrying a child but the fact that I have crappy eggs. My husband said that it wasn't a ton of blood, but it was enough to turn the washcloth bright red.

I slept fitfully last night and woke up hours earlier than I normally do. Upon calling the OB clinic, they told me to go to the emergency room right now since I am just almost twelve weeks. I should be going right now but instead am writing this message. I don't want to wake my husband up and tell him that we need to go. I don't want to move.

Please please send me your good thoughts or prayers or whatever you believe in.

xoxo