Although I initially planned to dedicate December to extolling my love of E, I couldn't do it after Sandy Hook. Once the dedications to each victim started appearing all over social media, I just felt gutted. As a mother, I just kept picturing losing E. Logically I know that none of that should stop me from celebrating my child, but I couldn't write it.
As December moved along, I went through a bevy of emotions after a seriously long cycle and then a crappy period. I'm pretty sure I was a rotten witch to my husband most of the time. With my mom here from Thanksgiving to Christmas, I indulged in some fabulous cookies, chocolate laced banana bread and cinnamon rolls. I'm pretty sure my bum is still spreading from those, but it was worth it.
Christmas itself was a picture perfect day. Scheduling a late Christmas Day dinner around E's nap time made him a happy and cheerful little boy.
More than anything, I loved how excited he was about opening presents this year, making our gingerbread house, and having guests over for dinner. Hearing him say "cistmis" and "santa" in his little voice was something I hope I never forget.
Before I knew it, Christmas was over, the tree was down and my mom was back in California. That gave me some serious blues for day or two. I regrouped though and started reflecting on the year and making some new plans. Typically I don't make New Year's resolutions because they don't typically work. Yet this year, I have some distinct efforts that deserve to be amped up.
1. To eat less processed foods.
2. To increase my sporadic exercising to consistent activity.
3. To be okay with whatever happens on our last FET.
4. To put down my iphone more.
I hope that 2013 is an amazing year for all of us. Happy New Year!
xoxo
Happy New Year Jen! Good luck with your resolutions. I made a few with some of the kids I work with before the break. One was to take my dog on walks at least twice a week (he's so neglected!), but he just had knee surgery so that one is already a wash! Ha! I too need to put the iPhone down more. I used to function without one, so it must be possible, right?
ReplyDeletemerry christmas and happy new year to you and your family! i wish you nothing but peace and happiness in this new year. <3<3<3
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Happy New Year. Good luck at those resolutions and BTW those cin rolls look amazing!
ReplyDeleteHoping all goes well for you this year.
ReplyDeleteI love those little candy cane pajamas he has on!! And yeah, I think we could ALL do better at putting our phones down!
ReplyDeleteHappy new year Jen. Your 'cistmas' sounded perfect. 2013 is going to be another great year for you i'm sure.
ReplyDeleteHey guess what arrived in the post for me today!! your xmas card!! thankyou so much - it is very special! I wasnt expecting it after your last message so it was a lovely suprise. What a beautiful family you have xxx
Glad you got to spend some special time with family over the holidays. Sounds picture perfect!
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