Friday, February 11, 2011

A year

It's kind of fitting that I'm in California visiting my family right now. Why, you ask? Because a year ago, I was sitting in this very same chair daring to hope that my two little blastocytes might turn into this

a life filled with gummy smiles
and quiet moments
Fairyeggs and I have been talking about the journey over the past few days. It seems like such a long time ago but yet at the same time the struggle of it all doesn't feel very removed. It seems like the struggles and heartbreak should vanish in the pure joy of having baby E, but it doesn't.

The scars of the journey remain on my heart.

But instead of being something bad, they are mixed with the love of Fairyegg's gift and the pride of our determination. Instead of marring our hearts as parents, I think the scars add to the character of our love for E.

It may not have been flawless, but I think our journey has turned out pretty darn beautiful.

xoxo

By the way, this is post #300!

13 comments:

  1. What a beautiful post. What you and Fairyeggs have together is so incredibly special. Crazy how a year has passed already! Happy 300th post! That's a lot of blogging, gf! Have fun in sunny CA! ♥

    I can't get over how adorable Baby E! I love seeing his new monthly pictures!!! Olivia says, "Weeeeeeetwoooooooo!" ;)

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  2. So so happy for you guys!!!!!!!!! That baby has some serious EYES!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE THEM!!! Gorgeous!

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  3. I love the phrase "the pride of our determination". I can so relate. It's been three long rough years of IF and we are just starting IVF#1 and I feel like I find strength and hope in just that- my determination. It hasn't been easy, but it hasn't broken me. I can still hope and that amazes me.

    Love the pictures- Dang he is cute.

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  4. What a doll -- those eyelashes! Why are the best eyelashes wasted on boys? ;)

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  5. My goodness, your son is too damn adorable! I love seeing his photos. What a year indeed! How very special our bond is to a child for whom we have sweat, bled, wished, hoped, and prayed for. Would you change it?

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  6. He is adorable. Hope you are enjoying every minute. It's amazing how fast they grow up isn't it. I've been MIA for a bit but hope to catch up on your adventures in motherhood soon.

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  7. How lovely that you can look back at the year as the year things finally went your way!!

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  8. Here from Mel's Roundup...what a beautiful post. You have such a lovely story. Finally having a baby doesn't completely get rid of the pain but it certainly makes it easier to bear.

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  9. What a gorgeous little baby your brought to this world!

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  10. Back for ICLW, I forgot to tell you before that your son is absolutely gorgeous.

    ICLW #19

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  11. He's beautiful! So glad that you can look back at the scars and see them for what they are... marks of your strength and perserverance.

    ICLW

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