8 more sleeps!

There are only eight more nights of sleeping before my beta!

Everything went pretty smoothly on transfer day despite the fact the Prez was traveling in a motorcade about four blocks from my clinic. Normally, I leave about an hour and a half early to get to the clinic on time for my appointments. Granted the clinic is only 37 miles away from my house, but this is LA we are talking about. We forgot about Columbus Day which significantly lightened the traffic load and gave us time to walk on over to Starbucks so I could treat my dad to a little pick-me-up. Speaking of my dad, my wonderful dad escorted me to and from the clinic this time just as we did with E's cycle. Of course my acupuncturist asked if he was my husband. BAHAHAH! My dad and I both got a kick out of that!

I had acupuncture both before and after my treatment which I absolutely love since I completely relax and often end up snoring away on the table. Part of my acupuncture relaxation was ruined however, when this twit of a nurse scared the crap out of me by saying, "The doctor is going to come talk to you and maybe we'll do the transfer then." She was out of the door before I registered what she said. The next ten minutes I spent freaking out that both embryos hadn't survived the thaw. Thankfully, they defrosted perfectly! By the time of the transfer, one had started hatching....whoo!

My mom, dad, and sister have been a fabulous in taking care of my little turkey while I'm resting. Now that I've passed the 48 hour mark, the wardens have allowed me to shower and get up some. I know it's overkill, but whatever makes us feel better!

Thanks for all of the support!

xoxo

Twas the night before Tx

'Twas the night before transfer and Jen was freaking out...

Wish me luck!!!

xoxo

Haha, no snow here!

I can't say that I'm sorry to be missing the first snow of the year at home. Why would I when I just got home from eating dinner at a fifties diner at the end of the pier on one of my favorite beaches? While my friends in Alaska are donning sweatshirts, I strolled along the pier in a shorts and t-shirt. Heaven!

Of course the reason that I'm in this delightfully warm locale is for our second FET. On Wednesday, I'll be heading in for my lining check and will start my progesterone that night. We decided to stick with the same protocol since despite it not working on FET#1 it did work on   E's cycle. The transfer is scheduled for Columbus day, October 8th.

But meanwhile we've been hitting Disneyland, the beach, and Mexican food with a VENGEANCE!

xoxo

a little vacation

While I categorize myself as a SAHM, I actually do work part time at an online university. I don't make a lot of money compared to the time I put into discussions and the endless grading. However, I love that it gives me an intellectual outlet along with a little money. As much as I love it, I'm super excited to have a six week break.

Coincidentally, with no actual intentional planning, my hubby has leave for the next two weeks. We didn't plan anything because he was originally suppose to have leave last month with the rest of his battalion before deploying, however with the reduction in forces over there, he's not going. Whoot whoo!

As for me, I thought by this point I would have my calendar and be gearing up to head back down to LA for our second transfer. I should have figured that my period would come when it damn well pleased -- so, I'm still waiting.

What this means is that we're having a little staycation here! I'm working on E's bday present which will look like this...

with some fun bright kid fabric. I'm also going to make a ruler growth chart like this...

Of course, these projects are sandwiched between playdates, activities, and camping. Everything outside is a little hit or miss since the weather started turning last week. Yes, you read that right. E has been rocking sweatshirts, long sleeves, hats, and rainboots most of the time.

The best part of this is just having a complete removal of any pressure on me. That's something to just really love.

xoxo

Tweet tweet

I just created my new twitter account for by bloggy & infertile friends AND to hopefully get myself updating more. Anyone else on there? @KnockedupBAM

xoxo

Thankfully I'm not raging anymore. Yay! A few days of camping helped me to pull my head out of my arse.

I also boosted my depression meds back to their original dosage which helped after a week or so. I'll be able to start pulling those back to a safer pregnancy dosage once I start my period and we ramp up for round two.

Besides that, my mom and I have been tooling around going to a few museums, baking, and playing with E. He's just awesome and well worth pushing myself to get back to normal. :D

Thanks for all of the support.

Love to all of you. xoxo

Raging.

After my fantastic beta of zero, I congratulated myself over how well I was handling the failure. Since I was throwing a baby shower for one of my great Alaskan friends, I immediately threw my energies into cleaning the house, sewing, crafting (oh the horrors!...but so worth it), and cooking. Having my mother around to help and generally tool around with during the week made everything go by so quickly. The shower was a smashing success with happy guests and a delighted mama-to-be.

Fast forward to today....I'm just a flat-out wreck with my hormones raging from my flipping period. What set it off was the email from my  doctor telling me we needed to wait a month since I started on Saturday and would have needed to start my injections on Sunday.

I lost it at lunch getting mad at my hubby when giving directions to a new eatery.
Then I couldn't stop crying after getting upset.
Being touched in sympathy and comfort made me even more upset.
It wasn't pretty.
I'm just raging.

It took all I had to close down and pull it together for lunch.

Guess I need to put my infertility game face on.

xoxo